I just had the craziest and most deep conversation I have ever had with my sister. This was on the phone just a few minutes ago. We talked about how I thought Cedar City was just this tiny town. Where all the businesses are run by the students that go there. That every student runs one of the businesses accept for the teachers and faculty of Southern Utah University. Not one other person lived there but them. Then we talked about dogs and how much I love dogs now. But when I was younger I didn't have a dog or any animals really. So I never knew what it was like to love animals like most other people. And now that I love animals so much, it is strange to look back and think how much different it was in life not having that great feeling for animals. To know the love between them was magic. Then my sister and I talked about kids. And I reminisced about how every time I talk to people who have kids, every single word they say and every thing about their lives makes me not want to have kids more and more. The things that do it the most, are when people tell me stories about their kids and it's just a normal day for them, that just seals the deal for me. Absolutely no kids coming from me ever. Not now, not then, NOT LATER; NOT NEVER GONNA HAVE KIDS. NOT EVER. YOU HEAR ME. AS NOT "GOD" AS MY WITNESS. I - WILL - NEVER -EVER - HAVE - KIDS.
Growing up with my sister moving out and getting married when I was, I never really got to get to know her. She moved out of the house when she was 18, later she married, and moved 30 minutes south of where I live. So I didn't see her as much as my other siblings so I didn't get the normal sibling relationship I had with the others. Just the day to day interactions of being brother and sister and brother and brother and sister and sister. But now I am older and I have better social skills than I used to and I know how to learn more about my sister and I finally feel like we have a stronger relationship with one another. It is like getting a new sister after over two decades of knowing the person, but not really knowing the person.
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I think because you have such great social-skills, it really makes you a easy person to talk to; especially me. I fear, or realize, I don't have great social-skills outside of our group and familiy; talking to you makes me feel a bit better about socializing. Thank you. I enjoy meeting new people and chit-chatting, but sometimes it can be tough.
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